I have had an old friend make a reappearence in my life recently: busy-ness!! I grew up with this friend and am thankful for my Mom and Dad who taught me how to live life very well with him. It's in my blood to juggle a lot of different plates but since I got married in June I had taken a sabbatical from it. January brought it back full swing though!
After being gone for the holidays I came back and Castle Rock finally starting feeling like home instead of my current place of residency. After being back only two days I got a job. It was like a little kiss from God! I have been on for almost a month and am taking a full load of classes, so even though I feel a little rusty in my juggling act, I am enjoying life so much! JD and I often have these conversations about how amazed we are at our lives.
One thing through the chaos I am learning is appreciating each day for what it is worth and finding the value in not what I am doing but who I am becoming. I have been plagued with this achievement mindset since I can remember and so when I am working on a lot of things at once I have always had the habit of pushing toward the goal no matter regardless of who or what I have to run over in the process. It's only been a month but I haven't found that person at all! Instead, I find that I am taking my time, even in the small things, and that it is okay to take a break or to let someone else do some of the work. It seems so simple but at times it's really hard to kill my pride. It's admitting that I am not and can't be Superwoman. It is so freeing though seeing my reflection in Jesus, where He is not waiting for me to produce something for Him but simply to acknowledge Him in all I am doing. I feel blessed beyond belief in what the Lord is doing in this season and the having the opportunity to be part of it with Him. It's my hope that I stay steadfast not on the small goals in front of me, but the ultimate Prize that is waiting for me.
Happy Juggling!!
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